I clicked on the chatbox on facebook, dragged down the whole box, only to learn a truth : I don't have much true friends. Even those who were once in my best friends' list.

And when I log into facebook, I also learn another truth : I am just nothing.

This has been so sarcastic. I once thought we were suppose to be best friends. It seems I am wrong. It just make me feel heartache. Nobody actually care about me. Even though I told many of you I was coming. Nobody cares.

It was difficult for me to accept true friends. When I count you in, I treat you with my heart. But it seems that I was just a fool. I know what you want to say. But it shouldn't everytime that I am the one to move all the steps, to try to persuade you to invite me in.

I tried, and I am fed up.

♥ Fly awAy with Me ♥

窘境

有时生活可以很美丽，有时生活可以很可悲。

此刻的心里，居然藏着莫名的空虚感。是为什么呢？

是因为觉得自己不得志？是为自己没有得到高薪的工作而产生的莫名情绪？

感觉自己坤仔个迷宫，走不出来。

自从开始了我现在的工作，这半年多来，总感觉自己很容易有负面情绪的出现。是那种忧郁，担心，悲伤，空虚的感觉。现在这份工不能让我发挥所长，也不能让我学到些什么。得不到任何工作上的满足感。有想过转工，可因为某些因素我必须把这个想法搁暂。

曾努力的说服自己，不要想这么多先。努力，努力的催眠自己，不果。我时而可以忘却这样的烦恼，时而却陷入这样的困境。

在这里学不到得不到，让我害怕未来不懂怎样适应这个世界。怕被淘汰，怕变得更懒散，怕迷失了自己。

害怕的心情，愤怒的情绪，每一天，每一晚，都一点一点参入我的心，我的脑。

为了这样的问题，我不止一次又一次的向他申诉。这样的一次又一次，让他觉得烦，也让我觉得自己厌倦。为了他，我心甘情愿的停下我的脚步。有时觉得这样对他不是很公平，但是我不懂是不是完全为了他还是什么。每一次都得说服自己在等多几个月就可以让自己潇洒作决定。但是，我懂，是我自己内心的性格导致今天的局面。

其实，是我自己不得志，还是我以为我自己很厉害，觉得自己小材大用？

原来，前途还是茫茫。未来还是飘浮不定。

不管怎样，在这一刻，忽然心情舒畅了。原来，想起他，此刻的心情还是带点甜蜜。

♥ Fly awAy with Me ♥

us?we?

As I thought "we" are us. Just US. But somehow he make me realise, we don't live within "us". We still need to consider the feeling of others, taking care of lifestyle of other people although we don't include them "us". Even in making a decision over a small matter, we need to cater for others. 

I was so upset with this when I realised the matter yesterday.



 



♥ Fly awAy with Me ♥

I am Back

After abandon my blog for a few months, and out of sudden I have my blogging-mood back.

Being so emotional for this few months, don't ask the reasons but mostly were my conflict and complicated thought that make myself suffer. Forget about the sadness and here come the happiness.

Plimples popping up on my face recently. It's time for me to pay a visit to beautician. 

"Wow, why so many pimples on your fore head?"

"Erm.."

"Are you having stress? Or you sleep very late??"

At the end, she recommended me a chinese herb cream which can help to reduce my pimples. A small little 2.5cm diameter container cost me RM18.00.  

I can smell  the "herb" when I applied the cream on my face. 

Hopefully the cream works well for my face. Will tell ya if the cream works in next post. :))))))

♥ Fly awAy with Me ♥

The ever 1st post of 2012

Hello 2012¬¬¬ Nice to meet u..
It has been such a long time Since my last blog¬¬Recently i was thinking off being low profile in everywhere..in my blog...my facebook and so on...
It seems that I fail...You see...I am addicted to the 'check in' in facebook where i will just try my very best to try to tell the whole world where I have been. Okie...actually i have tried to control myself not to expose my location...And secondly i just like to upload lotss of photo in the account...SO, trying to become low profile might seem as a far-away-target to me......

I can recall...a few days ago before I stepped in 2012..there were some bad news..Yes.working stuff that make me insane.......Not to mention any bad thing in my first blog of 2012......

Blogging here to tell the world : I am still alive

Wishing myself to have a nice nice nice and wonderful 2012 ahead.........

TGIF giveaway

TGFI, which is T-hank G-oodness I-t's F-REE is going to giveaway a Sweet Pink Banane Taipei which is worth RM 360. Come and grab it. Any further information please click here TGFI.
 Good Luck to eeryone.

♥ Fly awAy with Me ♥

火腿鸡蛋三文治

觉得中午办公室外的天气很热？
外面的太阳很毒辣？

对，本小姐就是觉得这样。又热又晒的天气，快把我变黑了。兴趣来潮，我决定为自己准备简单又健康的午餐--》 火腿鸡蛋三文治。 （可以同时躲在冷气房里也不错嘛）

我的午餐^^

火腿鸡蛋三文治
鸡蛋 - 1个
火腿 - 1片
青瓜 - 少许，切片
番茄 - 少许，切片
cheese - 1片

其实方法很简单哦。 先将鸡蛋和火腿烫熟，然后在切片了的面包上放上青瓜和番茄片，在用另一片面包夹起来，铺上一片cheese，火腿 和鸡蛋（切片）。最后，可以法规上自己喜爱的调味料（美乃滋，thousand islan, tomato sauce...)和放上最后一片面包。

这样，就可以装入便当盒带回去公司享用了。

哈哈，其实我还想加入洋葱圈，可是今早起床后忘了。

♥ Fly awAy with Me ♥

Argh~~Working Days

Without realising, I had been working in my current company for almost 2 and 1/2 months, which means i still have few weeks to go for my probation period only.

Frankly, there is no strict rules in the company, where most of he companies banned their workers facebook-ing during their work time. Maybe another word, there is no system as most other companies does. We can do our chit chatting, share our laugh and of course, when there are outsiders there, we must behave. Another freedom in the company is, the bosses are not always in the company.

Do all the shopping after lunch. All of these are the staff refreshment, another welfare from the company.

Enjoy my home cook lunch in the office. Thanks to MUMMY. ^^

Credit to my dear colleague. She prepared the salad for both of us. 

I think i have developed a lazy culture within myself. Don't think bad about me, when I need to do work, I will do my work with responsibility. However, I must change my behaviour.

Sometimes, the bosses will treat us lunch when their mood is good. This is  taken when I was on my way to enjoy buffet treated by a bos.

colleague no.1--> MIss Ong

Jamming all the times. Dislike raining when I am driving home.


I must be productive !!! No more laziness.

♥ Fly awAy with Me ♥