Thursday, August 28, 2008

Being Tagged!!

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.
Starting time: 4.00 pm
Name: AshLey
Sisters: don’t have a sister
Brothers: a brother, younger than me
Shoe size: five..
Height: can remain a secret??
Where do you live: Ipoh
Favourite drinks: mango juice, chocolate drink and many more
Favourite breakfast: porriage?
Have you ever been on a plane: yup
Swam in the ocean: yup
Fallen asleep in school: already part of my duties when I am in lectures now
Broken someone's heart: erm…
Fell off your chair: no..and I don’t want to have such experience
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: yes…but I hate that kind of feeling
Saved e-mails: let me think…
What is your room like: this one arh…u go to my room n see lah..
What's right beside you: my hp..my purse…
What is the last thing you ate: my lunchà malay rice
Ever had chicken pox: yaya…unforgettable memory
Sore throat: just got it during mid sem break
Stitches: what’s this?
Broken nose: No...
Do you believe in love at first sight: yes…
Like picnics: must see the venue and oso with who
Who was the last person you danced with: do I have such experience
Last made you smile: peng
You last yelled at: nobody bah..
Today did you:
Talk to someone you like: yes
Kissed anyone: sure no loh…
Get sick: I hurt my shoulder..can consider as sick?
Talked to an ex: I don’t have an ex
Miss someone: yaya…I miss lots of people…my mum..my dad..my bro..my nephew..my peng…yan..chong…jia min…len…and lots
Best feeling in the world: I have no idea
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: my Mr and Mrs Eddie..terapanda and Patrick dog..
What's under your bed: I put my notes and shoes under my bed in my hostel..
Who do you really hate: right now nobody..
What time is it now: 4.18 pm
Randoms :
Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now: yup
Q: Do you have any siblings: yup
Q: Do you want children: yup…
Q: Do you smile often: depends
Q: Do you like your hand-writing: sometimes
Q: Are your toenails painted: I just rubbed them all
Q: Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: let me think…hehe
Q: What colour shirt are you wearing: white
Q: What were you doing at 7:00pm yesterday: clamp in my books
Q: I can't wait till: I wanna go “guy guy”
Q: When did you cry last: good question
Q: Are you a friendly person: sometimes
Q: Do you have any pets: no
Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
He is now having class
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?
sure
Do you sleep with the TV on?
no
What are you doing right now?
My assignment..and this
Have you ever crawled through a window?
Huh??!
Can you handle the truth?
Erm…
Are you closer to your mother or father?
Mother…
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Can my pillow consider as a person?
How many people can you say you've really loved?
lots
Do you eat healthy?
No more healthy food in campus
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?
I DON’T HAVE EX!
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?
Sure..hehe
How often do you go to church?
I am Buddist
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?
Peng
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?
Depend oso
Are you confident?
Dedepend oso
5 things I was doing 10 years ago..(1998)
1- eat
2- sleep
3- walk
4- play
5- reading
5 things on my to-do list today
1- online
2- do my assignments
3- having exam later
4- sleep
5- watch movie
5 snacks I enjoy
1- roller coaster
2- pringles
3-super ring
4- grean bean
5- different types of nuts
5 things I would do if I were a billionaire1. built a banglo for my family
2. buy myself a BMW
3. travel all over the places
4. do charity
5. keep the money in bank
5 of my bad habits
1- emotional
2- dependant
3- like to disturb ppl
4- bad temper5- easily get sad
5 places I have lived in
1- Ipoh
2- Jinjang
3- UM
4- Penang
5- cameron
5 jobs I've had
1- daughter
2- student
3- fren
4- teacher
5- promoter
The Lucky Five1-Chloe2-Yu Yuan
3-Ying Jia4-Vylin
5-Gary

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Stress=hopeless??

Stress....again...

yup...lots of thing need to do after the break...
now must sleep and eat with my books 1st...
a bit kua zhang...right...
yup..
eaxam after break...
but no idea what the books want to tell me...
i can't remember all the things..
i dun understnd the account ..
i estimate myself a bit high in law...
i thought i can handle the law...
i thought it is not so hard after all...
proven i m wrong..
sweat..=,='

whenever face stress.
i will seek help from internet...
yes...ketagihan eredi...
but what to do?
i need to balance myself 1st...
anything or book or activities that can help me reduce stress?

thinkng of peng..
izzit really my fault that he cnt study?
mb ...
i always trouble him lots...

where was the I i used to be?
i should be independent, mature..cool and rasional...
since when i lost all this personalities?

too 逊。。。

swt..

Monday, August 18, 2008

UM


Here are some pictures of Um.. not really very nice...but anyway...hope u enjoy ....

my fac 's cafeteria
Bus stop at engine fac..i always wait bus here..
to pj gate n main library
UM convo


view from my hostel..12th college
i can view this from my college too
yup...my faculty..Faculty of Built Environment
here is my lecture hall 1
Cinderella chair in my fac


Sunday, August 17, 2008

恶作剧之吻2

很久很久没有看偶像剧了。
最后一次看的,没有记错的话,是《公主小妹》。

来到大学,看了两部偶像剧。
《命中注定我爱你》
还有一部,
《恶作剧之吻2》。

《命》我没有看完,也是看些没看一些。
但是,《恶》却深深触动我的心。

《恶》里男主角- 直树的性格,和平的性格很相似。他们都是一样的非常理智和冷静,他们都是一样的成绩好,他们都是那样的表现冷淡。他们对待心爱的人都是那么冷静和冷淡。其中有一幕直树没和家人老婆商量就私下要求到远远的马祖服兵役一年多,那时候,我想到了平,因为他也是那样的人,就是那种会坚持自己的理想而不理会至亲至爱的感受。

两个女生都是傻傻地不断为对方付出,却感觉上没有真正的被珍惜过。两个女生都是傻傻地为对方做尽一切。湘琴因为直树当了医生而去考护士,为了他神情调职去马祖,为的就是和直树在一起。感觉上就像我。为了他,当初费尽一切,尽管明白自己会不能适应那里的生活,跑东跑西地不断appeal matrik, 为的就是希望能和他进入同一间学校。为了他,努力考好成绩,为的就是希望够积分考进马大,和他同一间大学。

为他哭过,为他伤心,为他生气,为他流泪,为他傻过,也和他吵过无数次。

这点,和湘琴不同的是,她可以默默忍耐和承受他对她的不好和冷淡,我却不能。所以,我们会吵架。但是这套戏让我领悟,是不是平用着另一种方式去爱着我,保护我?是不是我们用着不合适对方的方式去爱护彼此?
忽然间发觉,我常常觉得他对我不够好,同样的,或许我也没有真正好好的对他。

这套戏说真的,非常触动我的心。我不会形容,但是看了这套戏,我忽然好像学会很多了。

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Messy Life

Sometimes feel that my life now is just mess.
Yup, really.
I haven't touch my books thoght there will be exam after the mid sem break.
I haven't do my assignment, thought the assignment n to hand up soon.

Yesterday was really a mess, indeep.
Because of Ptptn loan. I queue up from 9.00am, and get the number 519. After 9 hours is only mu turn. It's ok. I still manage to attent some classes. Just the kemahiran maklumat i went to another group's class. when the fasilator passed the attentance list to sign, I couldn't found my name. I was told that if i ganti class i must get a green form at the counter.

By the time i went to the counter, it was already closed because of lunch hour.But after that i have class to attend too. So i plan to go back to the library after my class.

OK, Later when my friend go there to fill up the form. She got scolded by the official there. When she bakc she told me the procedure. However, enen thought i know the procedure, i was scolded again. Sigh, replace class oso want to scold?

okok...back to today..

Today something happen and my fren say me something.
Suddenly i feel sad but i agree her words.
My gan qing life is really mess now.
They scare that incident will happen again.
I know i won't do it again.
I MUST NOT LET IT HAPPEN AGAIN.


I just wanna say sorry to Peng.
Really.
I think back the whole incident.
I admit, it is my fault. BUt Peng, u also have the resposiblity for what happened.
I just wanna apogise.
Love u alwaz~~^^

Friday, August 08, 2008

loser

有时候觉得自己还蛮逊的。。
又再感觉喘不过气了。。
是的,我嗅到压力要来临的气味了。。
拜托,别靠近我。。。
shoo~shoo~
我会累的好不好?别烦我,走开!

明明就是应该enjoy我的周末。。
但是为什么忽然又有功给我做了叻?
不是都做好吗?怎么又改?
KKD。。求你啦,别顽皮了。。。
我迟早被你刺激到心脏发作了!
BUDGET 啊,我似乎和你没仇叻,怎么你也是一改再改??
你们懂我会伤心吗?
你们懂我会累叻?

最近只是为了KKD和BUDGET 我已经搞到精疲力尽了。。
是我没学会信任人吗?为什么事情总不能放心交给其他人做呢?
我的人就是这样。。总是放不下。。。
最近一些事,
不,是最近一个月,被很多事弄得我累了。。
心痛,心酸,受伤、难过、独自躲着偷偷留泪。。。
不要这样对我。。。
我很容易受伤。。
逊到死。。。

我真的很逊。。
以为自己行。。。
原来很多事。。
我都是loser...

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

desperate

Sorry that i am down.......
reAlly no Mood...
Yesterday i was so desperate!!!!
DESPARATE!!
I have meeting at 8pm..
only in the meeting i know that the kkd need to hand up before midnight!!!
i have to say sorry to my group that i wasn't there when they did the kkd..
and my ketua is not there...
i call him several times also no response..
then i was asked to hand up my biro budget that night too..
I really have no idea what my biro need to use for the 2 weeks programme..
the list is not out, where's the venue? how many gerai will set up??
bla bla bla...
according to my ketua, our biro budget is 0!
but when my pengarah ask me...i dunno why it is zero..
because i really blur...
i couldn't contact my ketua..
as timbalan, i have to do it!
I have to know where to get the kon, caution tape and so on..
but i have no idea at all..
it is already 9pm that time..the office is closed!
I NEED TO HAND UP THE BUDGET THAT NIGHT TOO!!
thanks shan..she accompanied me all the way round..
Thanks SHAN!!
She also forced apek come to meet me..
and thanks to somebody too..
because somebody had helped me a lot by giving me many useful info..
desperate! Desperate! DESPARATE!
i really feel so stress that moment..
helpless..
what else i need to do?
i have no experience and i satnd alone..
all my biro members are not free..
ok..i do it...myself..
while i am typing..
i felt that my finger is very cold..
only then i realise my finger was bleeding..
and then i feel pain...
i couldn't stop the boold for few minutes even press it lightly with tissue..
i think my immune really getting worse or what..
at the end i can finish my stuff!
thank god..
honestly i think i have no ability to take this responbility...
dunno why..
but i hope i will try my best..
YUP, trying my best.
GAMBATEH..ASHLEY